This coming weekend will be the eighth full moon, She Who Heals. We have now completed the second full rotation around the Medicine Wheel. In the final rotation of this year we begin an inward journey. We have spent a good deal of time learning about the truth of our interconnectedness with all of life. Our next rotation will be devoted to how we capture the power of our center–our interior being.
I am going to ask you to spend time during the full moon cycle, August 9-11, to go deep into the silence, in whatever way is comfortable for you. I want you to see yourself as a being made from love, radiating love and health. Before you do that, however, reflect on what these symbolic words mean to you–love and health. What do they look like? feel like? Spend time basking in the energy of this power that emanates from within.
Her piece inspired me to consider what was keeping me from delving into topics important to me but have let my fear get in the way. I’ve considered the form: memoir, short fiction, young adult, essay and novel. That list alone made me weep. I thought about writing to Elizabeth but rescinded when I realized that she would just tell me to get to work. That’s exactly what I would say.
At the same time, I knew I could figure this out because I had finally managed to formulate the right questions, a crucial undertaking in any important endeavor. Right? But you still need someone to bounce your ideas off–someone whose mind/intellect you respect. I ended up having a lengthy discussion with my partner about this principle quandary, laying out all of the information that I had been thinking about for years.
I think my main obstacle over the past few years has been to give myself permission to let my writing be whatever it wants to be and forget about what it should be called, as if that were some status in itself. My partner helped me realize that I have a slew of stories that I have been telling these many years. While I knew that, he helped me understand that they were the beginning muse. I didn’t understand his interpretation of muse.
This year’s symbol, the Hierophant (5), is asking me to focus my spiritual “Path with Heart” with practicality. For me, it’s all about being at the North of the Medicine Wheel. Ironically, that was my axis position for both of the Medicine Teachers (Harley Swiftdeer and Twylah Nitsch) who positioned me as one of their Four Winds. Through my heart center and intuition, I will look at the relationships I have built and see the choices I must make. Every choice must have a strong grounding so that I may continue to be healthy and whole. Looking at the world with wonder and curiosity must be central to my purpose, vision and creativity. Actively working on my creative purpose will allow me to manifest my vision into form.
Based on all of the above information, I feel that my chosen desire from the Bhagavad Gita is to gain power. (The four desires are: the desire to reduce pain; the desire to feel better, the desire to gain internal and external power over our lives; and the desire to achieve spiritual discrimination) I feel that I have parceled my power away and so I feel scattered. Why is it that I have so intently taken up cooking? I feel power in making choices about what goes into my body and how it affects my well-being and state of mind in the moment. I feel power in pulling my weeds which in reality is transforming my garden to a tranquil retreat of harmonious and aesthetic pleasure.
Happily, I feel like creating art once again. I began working on a piece for a former student and now an adopted daughter. So as I write this I want to thank you for being here and doing this with me. I am humbled by how close I become with so many of my students. It matters to me what happens to you in your life and that you are well. Hopefully, some of the tools that have been handed down through wondrous Indigenous wisdom help you become strong and balanced individuals. I have faith in you.
I am frequently confounded by my inability to trust myself. Partly, I remind my students that women (and the unseen feminine power) battle an almost continuous stream of negative messages invalidating worth. The feminine is nearly always depicted as “less than” and in opposition to the rational and demonstrative (masculine) power.
Intuition, introspection, creativity, and inter-relational, non-linear dynamics must be reaffirmed almost daily among young women on the path to personal power.
For indigenous wisdom, the power of dreaming and visions contributed symbolic signs from nature that amplified awareness not only for individuals, but for the community. The first feminine truth, “Everything Is Born of Woman” sets the foundation for Balance as a whole.
This week I ask all of my readers to practice the alignment principle after this fourth full moon and begin to trust what you “see” when you have entered into the silence to ask the natural world to provide the answers you seek. Trust your intuition, your introspection, your ability to intentionally project that which you desire to make you a better human being. This practice can only make you stronger.