Looks Far Woman

Wow! Believe me when I say that choosing the word “Transformation” as my touchstone word for the year has been REAL. Nearly everything that I have, has changed. It has been, at times, excruciatingly painful. However, through diligent and sustained effort, unexpected resiliency emerges from all aspects of my being. That is pretty cool. As a consequence, I really have no other desire than to continue to work on my health as well as support the health of my beloveds.

In this past moon, the most significant and transformative event was that my mother died. Difficult to explain, but I felt sensitive on so many levels. You come to believe that you will feel loss, and, of course, this is true. However, the feeling of dramatic separation, at least for me, was far more intense. I became separated from, not only the DNA connection, but from memories, and histories, realizing that the stories that we have upheld may be let go.

Directly after, I experienced the sensation of a kind of formless floating, whereupon, my imagination began to conceive a notion of how,  since all previous connection was severed, to reapply form .

Carlos Castaneda was correct when he wrote about the relationship of personal power to the DNA connections with our relations. A mother’s “give-away” that is the part of herself which brings life into the world, is tremendous.

And so I honor my mother for the gift of life that she gave to me. And I have promised myself not to take it for granted.

 

All Paths Are One

The surprises of Life continue to amaze. In choosing my touchstone word for the year, the consequences are completely unexpected. My routine is caught up in “Transformation” regardless of the original intent, humbling and irreverent as always.

Thus, my blogposts catch me in moments of imprecision, making it difficult to capture, in words dilemmas and paradox. Ah well…such is the path.

I will remain open to the continuing unfolding of events. The only thing that I am able to do right now is pay attention to the body. It is happiest when connecting with All My Relations of the Natural World.

Until next time…

 

 

Transformative Times Begun!

Transformation.

It’s amazing how one word full of one’s heartfelt intention can bring about rapid change. I feel as though I’m leaping hurdles in fog. I just keep moving forward hoping that I may rest soon. My own sacred fire keeps me warm in the cold. Focusing on the moment at hand is all that matters.

I continue to address the needs of my body: lots of yoga and walking. This alleviates any anxiety that may creep into the musculature. Other than that, most of what unfolds before me is radiance. Humble gratitude is my blanket.

Ho!

First Full Moon of the New Year 2016!

Reentry into North America has been fascinating. The winter weather belies a frost in both culture and adaptation these past three weeks. That is why I missed the New Moon blog post. On the other hand, perceptions may be misleading. What I do know is change is upon me and I desire to flow with grace.

It’s been important to me to ascribe to and embark upon periodic adventures in quotidian disruption. Uruguay was a prelude. I have read my cards for the New Year, and chosen my touchstone word, “Transformation”. This New Year is full of possibility even though it will result in shamanic death yet again. The humble path awaits.

Body Knowing has spoken its joy in physical exercise as well as both culinary research and experimentation.  I found that I am much more playful at meal preparation. And while I still prepare the same foods, there is additional skill with variety. It is the same with exercise. Hard won fitness built a certain level of strength and endurance that determination does not intend to lose. There is less inhibition and more confidence regarding my own healing and mortality.

Surprising emails from friendly acquaintances have delighted me. It seems as though I’ve made a few more lasting relationships than I had ever imagined. I’m glad that I had the opportunity to experience another way of being. What I discovered is that we are all one. There is a tenderness in all of our hopes and dreams as humans on this beautiful planet.

I’m thinking of Spider Woman right now. She wove the world. Each one of us may weave a strand into the fabric of life and hope that it is a harmonious and aesthetically pleasing addition to the tapestry.

Happy New Year! Please remember our first feminine truth: Everything Is Born of Woman. Because it is thus, We are in Kinship with All of the Natural World.

 

Gratitude Continued…

 

Part of the expansiveness of Gratitude is to accept all that has occurred in one’s experience of Life. There are the dark moments as well as the uplifting ones. All teach us something.

As I get ready to leave Uruguay in a few days, I am grateful for the well spring of kindness that I have received. There have been misunderstandings as well which have made me feel sorrow. However, it is encouraging to remember that all challenge may present positive outcomes if we take the opportunity to reflect on each and every lesson.

I’m grateful that I may continue to have an open attitude toward my own learning. Experience is quite personal and meaning for me continues to come from relationships of inclusion rather than blame.

On this Christmas Day I send out to the Universe and All My Relations thoughts of peace and love. I am full.