Category Archives: The 13 Feminine Truths

Embracing Change

Since the designation of “Transformation” as my guiding principle for 2016 (my choice completely), life has been anything but routine. However, with change comes an inevitable cycle which includes a gestation component making me restless and antsy. I await the unfolding of something grand, usually with a mixture of both trepidation and impatience, without realizing that imperceptible, gradual change is already in process.

Such is what has occupied my time this past month. I relish the prospect of change (for the most part) but I want it to happen now. Anxiety about what the change will be has caused me to want to get out of my body as well as out of town. To take my mind out of this loop as well as treat my body to some serious relaxation, I embraced some little day trips to places steeped in nostalgia and love. This was serious healing and although I have returned home well rested, it is a challenge to simply be. The battle for meaning (a continuous polemic between rigor and complacency) is tempered with faith.

Love and Change

I am a plant woman. I love my garden. This past month was spent immersed in the sacred act of weeding which I have renamed “sculpting”. It is the time when I let certain plants know that they have encroached too much in certain areas and give space to others that I want to flourish even more.

Spending this time has been healing. As you all know, this year has been a time of intense transformation in all aspects of my life. I have felt a restlessness because of the tremendous uncertainty that accompanies change. What to do? I think the best remedy is to focus on love.

I love all of my plants, even the ones that like to take over. Then I love converting some of those plants into meals from all different corners of the world. But this past month, since blueberries were prolific, I chose to make my first blueberry pie for my family. Since it turned out to be so easy, I ended up making three pies, each better than the previous! Practice really is worthwhile.

Another aspect of health was to honor what has past. Taking a trip of nostalgia to a place I used to call home, gave me a new appreciation for the subtle changes that a place can make as well.

Loving something unconditionally does contribute to one’s strength and compassion.  So I continue to work on my physical, emotional, spiritual, intellectual, and communal well being. More things emerge. They may be raw at first, but then the harsh discord subsides, and I know that I will be much more resilient in the future.

Ho! It is good!

Sacred Points of View

I have spent the last month reading lots of fiction and non-fiction to immerse myself in different points of view because I have begun to write fiction. Also, it has been fascinating to explore the world theater of politics. There’s definitely a lot going on. I’m trying not to be very judgmental in my experiences of peoples’ out-loud thoughts which are sometimes astonishing.

Since I have been recovering from so much emotional turmoil (both good and not so good) these past months, it has been a struggle to come to the blog. I apologize.

While I’m not entirely certain that my performance in the future months will be much better than it has been this year, I am heartened by the concept of “one step at a time”. Throwing out Indigenous Wisdom into the ether-sphere may have value.

New moon is tomorrow. I wish you all save travels.

Listening

Well. According to my records, the new moon begins tomorrow and I have this final day of month five to post my blog. Transformation continues. Just when I think I will get a respite from change, new information comes and rocks my world. This past month I received many, many messages from my past. Some made me smile, some cry, and all made me listen to my inner being. Last month, I was preparing to remain true to my feelings no matter what others may try to place upon me through expectation or judgment. It was a good lesson. If you have tried to be honest with yourself, it’s okay to reserve your own counsel no matter what the prevailing customs may deem appropriate. I am not important and my presence is not required. Still, seeing images of individuals from one’s past will churn up many feelings. What matters most is that those feelings are acknowledged. Across time there were significant interactions that helped mold who we were to become. Because I listened to others and myself, I am happy that I am still open to change and the inevitable learning outcomes of change.

Here’s hoping next month is a little easier. 🙂

Looks Far Woman

Wow! Believe me when I say that choosing the word “Transformation” as my touchstone word for the year has been REAL. Nearly everything that I have, has changed. It has been, at times, excruciatingly painful. However, through diligent and sustained effort, unexpected resiliency emerges from all aspects of my being. That is pretty cool. As a consequence, I really have no other desire than to continue to work on my health as well as support the health of my beloveds.

In this past moon, the most significant and transformative event was that my mother died. Difficult to explain, but I felt sensitive on so many levels. You come to believe that you will feel loss, and, of course, this is true. However, the feeling of dramatic separation, at least for me, was far more intense. I became separated from, not only the DNA connection, but from memories, and histories, realizing that the stories that we have upheld may be let go.

Directly after, I experienced the sensation of a kind of formless floating, whereupon, my imagination began to conceive a notion of how,  since all previous connection was severed, to reapply form .

Carlos Castaneda was correct when he wrote about the relationship of personal power to the DNA connections with our relations. A mother’s “give-away” that is the part of herself which brings life into the world, is tremendous.

And so I honor my mother for the gift of life that she gave to me. And I have promised myself not to take it for granted.