Category Archives: 4th Alignment Principle

Looks Far Woman

Wow! Believe me when I say that choosing the word “Transformation” as my touchstone word for the year has been REAL. Nearly everything that I have, has changed. It has been, at times, excruciatingly painful. However, through diligent and sustained effort, unexpected resiliency emerges from all aspects of my being. That is pretty cool. As a consequence, I really have no other desire than to continue to work on my health as well as support the health of my beloveds.

In this past moon, the most significant and transformative event was that my mother died. Difficult to explain, but I felt sensitive on so many levels. You come to believe that you will feel loss, and, of course, this is true. However, the feeling of dramatic separation, at least for me, was far more intense. I became separated from, not only the DNA connection, but from memories, and histories, realizing that the stories that we have upheld may be let go.

Directly after, I experienced the sensation of a kind of formless floating, whereupon, my imagination began to conceive a notion of how,  since all previous connection was severed, to reapply form .

Carlos Castaneda was correct when he wrote about the relationship of personal power to the DNA connections with our relations. A mother’s “give-away” that is the part of herself which brings life into the world, is tremendous.

And so I honor my mother for the gift of life that she gave to me. And I have promised myself not to take it for granted.


Looks Far Woman

Well, it’s been awhile. I guess that I couldn’t keep my promise to write every new and full moon. My last post was at the beginning (new) of the third Moon. It is now the end of the fourth moon cycle. It’s not that bad. I haven’t missed a moon yet. If you want to check out the details of each moon all you have to do is go to the archives. The early ones are very detailed about the moon’s truth and alignment wisdom. This year I’m writing a bit more about how I am personally and philosophically handling the moon’s intelligence as I go through the everyday aspects of life. I don’t want these blog posts to be long-winded. I like them short and sweet. So I apologize upfront for its length.

As you know from my last blog posts, life-changing events happened to me at the beginning of the year which has had a profound impact on the way I see and move right now. Life is swelling with possibility and yet, I proceed with caution. Shortly, I will be moving to a different country for a few months. My only thoughts have been to immerse myself in the language, customs, foods, way-of-life, state and government institutions, arts and neighborhood scenes, and its geo-political relationship in world affairs. The second driving force for me has been to improve my health so that I am fit and keen when I arrive. I want to be vibrant and engaging. Consequently, I have completely revamped the way I eat and devouring research via cookbooks and the current happenings on the health scene. All the time, I have been weighing the newly acquired knowledge against what I know about my body and self; how I respond, and what makes me feel good. After one month of intense recipe testing, food combining, and exercising, I have a new body. It feels really good. All of the little internal pains that used to nag me are gone. Also, my resiliency is improving. It’s quite remarkable and I am very happy about this change for the better. I still have a lot to learn. I am someone who loves variety which has its own learning curve.

I chose LOVE as my guiding word for the year and I feel that everything is pointing toward me. I am discovering that Love of self must come first. I have never truly loved myself. I mean really given myself the confidence to listen to what is happening inside of me: How are all of those forces speaking, what are they saying and am I really listening? This year I am being forced to do precisely that. It is both strange and exhilarating. (As a side note I hope you know that I am not talking about the petty, selfish love of self. I am talking about the kind of self-love that happens after you let go of any artifice, structure, power, or gain. I am not that important, just a voyager.)

Well, being at Oneness and trusting what you see (especially inside) is quite the accomplishment. I think that I’ll smile for a bit because it was worth all the effort. Thank you for your grace, Looks Far Woman. Thank you to All My Relations for hearing my prayer of wholeness.

‘Till next time, Dear Readers.


Choosing My Desire

This year’s symbol, the Hierophant (5), is asking me to focus my spiritual “Path with Heart” with practicality. For me, it’s all about being at the North of the Medicine Wheel. Ironically, that was my axis position for both of the Medicine Teachers (Harley Swiftdeer and Twylah Nitsch) who positioned me as one of their Four Winds. Through my heart center and intuition, I will look at the relationships I have built and see the choices I must make. Every choice must have a strong grounding so that I may continue to be healthy and whole. Looking at the world with wonder and curiosity must be central to my purpose, vision and creativity. Actively working on my creative purpose will allow me to manifest my vision into form.

Based on all of the above information, I feel that my chosen desire from the Bhagavad Gita is to gain power. (The four desires are: the desire to reduce pain; the desire to feel better, the desire to gain internal and external power over our lives; and the desire to achieve spiritual discrimination) I feel that I have parceled my power away and so I feel scattered. Why is it that I have so intently taken up cooking? I feel power in making choices about what goes into my body and how it affects my well-being and state of mind in the moment. I feel power in pulling my weeds which in reality is transforming my garden to a tranquil retreat of harmonious and aesthetic pleasure.

Happily, I feel like creating art once again. I began working on a piece for a former student and now an adopted daughter. So as I write this I want to thank you for being here and doing this with me. I am humbled by how close I become with so many of my students. It matters to me what happens to you in your life and that you are well. Hopefully, some of the tools that have been handed down through wondrous Indigenous wisdom help you become strong and balanced individuals. I have faith in you.

Symbolic “Growth” Numbers

In class number four, my students and I decided to explore the number symbols from The Tarot Handbook by Angeles Arrien. I want to share what she wrote about my current year’s symbol, the Hierophant (5) and what I did to make it be more meaningful to me:

First, I placed the four creatures she describes from the Crowley Deck on a Medicine Wheel:

  1. SOUTH: Scorpio, the eagle or phoenix: loyalty and commitment towards anyone or anything that has heart and meaning for us.
  2. WEST: Leo, the lion: Expansive and unlimited creativity that waits to be utilized.
  3. NORTH: Taurus, the bull (Eastern tradition/Elephant): reminds us to implement and take action on our ideas and bring them into form.
  4. EAST: Aquarius, the human face: Humankind’s desire to be original, futuristic and pioneering.

NOTE: It is fascinating to me that incidentally, the FIVE of the Indigenous count is the number for “Humans”. So it dovetails with placing Aquarius, the human face, at the East. Aquarius is also known as the Water Bearer.

And continuing from Arrien…

  • These same creatures appear and are found in times of handling change (The Chariot) and in building new worlds (The Universe).
  • Any commitment requires our heart, mind and action to share the same intention and focus. Commitments kept are consistently aligned and integrated.
  • Hierophant years support internal growth and development. People may find themselves in contemplation, meditation, dreams and spiritual practice.
  • It is definitely a year to implement creative ideas or make one’s life more stable, solid and secure through one’s own productivity. During a Hierophant year, you face and confront old fears of defeat, resolve old disappointments, realize that anxiety is produced by holding back, and release old worry patterns.

I find this consistent with my desire to teach this year and the fact that I have let go of most all of my community service obligations. I am, informally, a hermit for this coming year. It is allowing me space to think and create. I am full.

Whale Medicine

I’m in a bit of a transition (actually Shamanic Death) which seems to happen often when one is an agent of change. So, I’ve been struggling with adopting the attitude of “Surrender”. Whenever I feel anxious about making the change go more quickly, I have been consulting oracular artifacts. I was recently gifted some Runes and they have proven to be very helpful. They keep giving me the same messages in varying guises which always suggest that I let go of the old me so that the new me may emerge. I appreciate that I need so many reminders about not resisting the transitions between change. Those seem to be the most difficult times because they are so nebulous.

At the same time, I have been reading The Subtle Body: An Encyclopedia of Your Energetic Anatomy by Cyndi Dale. Fascinating read because it links all of the new research applications of quantum physics to the body. Whale medicine is knowing when you are in communication with another being. It is similar to telepathy. The part that I really enjoyed from the book was how the chakras aid healers in identifying ways to help individuals. While we may all have whale medicine gifts, we are more adept with specific chakras.

Since I am dedicated to changing my habits, I am finding that resistance is futile. What is helping me more than anything is focusing on all of the good, not my frustrations. What good is coming from this change. What positive things am I seeing about my self? Almost finished wrestling with the cocoon, I am beginning to feel my wings dry in the sun.